I thought a couple of months ago that "i'm too comfortable. i'm not necessarily going forward nor am i going backwards i'm just good where i am." And now ironically, or not really, at the end of senior year and about 2 months until i leave for Mexico, specifically this past week...things aren't so comfortable anymore.
It's actually really weird because there are definitely some things recently that have been going really well. things with some friends, school, etc. but then some things have just gotten so screwed up. Things with relationships and old struggles.
Stuff with some relationships has not been easy. Things like realizing i can't be too dependent on people, specifically friendships, but also that God has called us to have close people in our lives to help us along the way...i have to find that balance. Then to continually love because i was and am loved through all my mistakes and this isn't my life. To be a real friend Proverbs 17:17 and that sometimes being a friend means saying things and doing things that the other person won't necessarily like but from the best of my knowledge its for the best. but still...
today i'm definitely saying "I can't figure things out" but thankfully God will guide me...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
_Proverbs 3:5-6
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