perspective. purpose

today i lost all perspective. i woke up grumpy and just stayed that way for most of the day. no reason, it was just one of those days. and i understand that sometimes we all just have those days but they can be over come. i don't have to be stuck. Recently some relationships have been hard to deal with. theres a core group of people that i've been hanging out with this past year and we've grown together but recently it has all been falling apart. i thought by now we would all be past the "clickiness" and the gossip but i feel like that's where its fallen to. it hasn't been about hanging out with each other to enjoy each others company or to get to know each other more...or even just being the types of friend the Bible describes: "A friend loves at all times (NIV)" or different phrasing "Friends love through all kinds of weather." (message) _Proverbs 17:17. i know there will be times when we don't get along and we'll get hurt because of things but really "We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother."_1 John 4:19-21.

all the random little things that are happening are so miniscule in the grand scheme of things so why are we allowing it to rip the tight friendships we had? God forgave us for all our sins and we can't forgive people for one or two things they've done? i'm in the fault as well. i have been hurt by something and i haven't forgave the person even though we talked, only making the situation more awkward. When Jesus was on the earth there were many times that he loved people but they rejected him...but still he continued to love them and ultimately pay their debt. why do we hold so tightly to the dumbest things?

in between working on homework i read something my friend posted (notes from a retreat) and i'm going to post them to leave you with some thoughts. but as for me i'm saying "Father break me down so i'm not proud and let me love like You do."

My Friend's Notes:
-God's not going to hide His will from you.
-Anxious feelings is flushing God's Sovereignty down the toilet.
-Is Something out of His Control?
-All we see are problems. God can solve them.
-Dwell on the present in God's Holiness.
-Ask God to tell you what to do
-How often are you in His word?
-What is not letting you hear Him?
-He'll give you the opportunity to hear Him.
-What is distracting you?
-What is your priority?
-Why didn't he take immediately to heaven?
-We are His mirrors, to show others Him.
-Are you hiding something?
-You are ignoring God.
-God will reveal what is not okay.
-Check attitude when you sin?
-Do you care?
-That He was beaten and killed
-Don't let sin reign in your life
-1 John
-How are you going to be protected if you are not reading everyday.
-James 4:4 "You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God?"
-If you don't take it seriously... The world will feed you lies.
-YOU NEED THE BIBLE!
-How do you discern what God's will is?
-Principles to live by daily
-Close to Him
-Listen to the Holy Spirit.
-How do you check that?
-James 4:15 "Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that'."
-Make sure you bring it to God in prayer
-Open your hands that are holding your dreams
-Or God will tear them out of your hands.
-"I want my hands open to receive your gifts"
-It's how you react.
-Maybe God's has not revealed His will yet.
-"Your not ready for that... I haven't prepared you yet... But I will mend and mold you for that moment." ~God~
-"Why won't you tell me!"
-He wants you to trust Him MORE!
-Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord your God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
-HE KNOWS!
-Come before him with what's burdening your heart.
-Go to God with the scary stuff you can't explain.
-He will never leave you or forsake you
-I am stupid, HELP ME!
-Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
-I Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all you anxiety on him because he cares for you."
-He couldn't live eternity without you.
-STOP
-REMEMBER WHO MADE YOU!