woah too much...

there are multiple thoughts and things to discuss from today. Let's see. school today was pretty normal. some classes never ended but then i end the day with spanish which is always makes me in a good mood. Senorita asked me to give directions for making the passports for World Language Week next week but it was totally on the spot so i freaked out and didn't do it. stupid. even though things might freak me out i need to take the opportunities i'm given especially now when i'm still in a spanish class.

after school i finished addressing, stamping, and filling the envelopes with my support letters. I even finished making the excel document with all the names, addresses, how much i need to gain still etc. then i called eddie to make sure caravan has an account for me but didn't reach him.

at shack tonight it was a singing shack. instead of splitting up we all stay together and sing and just share whats going on. and the last two of those i don't know for some reason my head just has not been in them but usually i still have a few good points/thoughts to share but tonight man i don't know i was just not there. i don't know why. we played and sang some songs and i couldn't concentrate. but then we got into groups of about three and prayed. my group, it was cool because at first we all prayed once and then we just kept praying. whoever had something on their heart prayed. a lot of the time when i pray out loud i'm always thinking about what i'm going to say next and the first time thats how it was but someone in my group mentioned that we be broken for what God is broken for which made me think of the song Hosanna by Hillsong United where she sings "break my heart for what breaks yours." That is my favorite line of that song and so i just went off that and started talking and it was like i was just talking to another friend i was talking then after i said the words i realized what i was saying. i love it when prayer is like that just completely honest, the way it's suppose to be. so then when we started singing again we sang "O Praise Him" by David Crowder and there is one part where it says "this love so rescuing...redeeming love, so now we sing" (or something close) and it just clicked. Tomorrow is good friday. it isn't really a celebration, tomorrow but more of a remembrance of Jesus' death on the cross. but that is what we are remembering tomorrow "redeeming love." It just blew my mind. Thats why we can sing because of Jesus' redeeming love, his death. That's why we can share with others love, thats why we are. and with that in mind i finished the singing shack off with "Jesus Paid it all" by Kristian Stanfill. Some times i forget how big...big is to lame how grand of a gift i, we were given.

on my way out to my car i was all excited to make an "on-the-go" playlist on my ipod of songs like "mighty to save" "glorious" "hosanna" "beautiful jesus" etc. when i saw the gorgeous full moon and shining stars. i called up a friend to exclaim all the weird happenings of the day and then i realized again that in that moment it was another way God was saying "hey look here I am." Through the music(words, people singing, instruments), the nature that never ceases to amaze me, and through a really good conversation with a close friend. hmph, gotta love it.

so thank you if you've read it all i shall leave you tonight with these amazing lyrics:

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

ah, i love that song! oooh and i just realized i forgot to inform you of the rest of the "mexico" news. i shall do that tomorrow because i'm sure you are wanting to be done reading this and i personally want sleep.